7 things I’m struggling with lately.
I wanted to be vulnerable today and share some things that I might not usually share on my platform. Things I usually keep to myself or in my little brain with my other weird thoughts. I recently read a post like this and thought it was brilliant. It’s rare to see what people are struggling with or scared of - so I thought it might be refreshing to see my own things I am working through right now. If this post resonates with you, hop on down to my DM’s on Instagram and share what did it!
1) Being in a period of rest.
You guys know, that right now after over a year of 100mph, I am now focusing on some slow growth. I’m stepping back a bit. The last year particularly, I lost a lot of my good habits, such as going to the gym and gained a few bad ones (such as eating one too many ramen pots for quick lunches). I wasn’t practising what I preach at all - and so I’m slowing it down. And it’s scary! I’m a real Capricorn, so for me I’m super engaged with being switched ON at all times. I need the rest, but I’m scared my business will suffer. I’, scared people will think I’m being lazy or that I’m not a real coach because I’m not actively coaching right now. Of course, this is all imposter syndrome. Nobody is thinking these things (maybe my mum hah!). Rest is AS important as working. I know all these things, but sometimes telling that little voice in your head to pipe down is hard. And scary.
2) Adapting.
The By Kayleigh mentorship is changing and as a result, I’m switching up a lot and learning a lot of new things, new practises and new ways of doing things. It’s never fun changing what feels safe and comfortable, to something new. It’s like learning a new phone. But I gotta do it.
3) Letting go of control
An essential part of scaling is letting go of the reins. We can’t do everything, we can’t be one woman shows if we want to truly scale our businesses. A huge part of growth is hiring new team members, trusting them and learning to communicate with them. I’m having a fantastic experience with my 2 freelancers, my VA and my social media manager Bryony (shout out Bryony who schedules this blog post!). But I know I need to do a bit more, I need to take bigger leaps. To truly scale I need to loosen up control, I need to invest even more, I need to learn to TRUST. It’s scary as heck.
4) Investing
I have done a lot of work with money mindset, which is still a big thing today that I continue to work on. One thing I am blocking right now, is investing. I’m already investing in small pockets of my business, and have my own mentor, I have joined a couple of small courses and a membership. But my instinct is telling me I need to go big. I need to make a sizeable investment to see the growth I want. And that’s scary!
5) Imposter Syndrome
I teach it, I teach how to get over it, I teach how to make that annoying imposter voice just a little bit smaller. But even I suffer from it. I still have a voice telling me I shouldn’t be doing this. That i’m not offering value. Who is even listening to me? I should stop doing this. Who am I to be doing this? Nobody will buy my next course. Blah blah blah. It’s there every single day, with my real voice telling it “thank you very much but I’m doing just fine”. But its scary, especially when I’m planning some real big launches next year. That voice gets just a little bit louder as they get closer.
6) Motivation & Burnout
This one is temporary, and given time and rest I know will come back. But right now, I’m so tired. I don’t think I’m burnt out, because I have good boundaries that stop me burning out. But I am tired and as a result, I don’t have a lot of motivation right now (which is scary, because my Capricorn personality ALWAYS has motivation). I’m taking 2 weeks of doing absolutely nothing, to fuel my motivation to come back. I’m also working on getting in touch with my spiritual side again and manifesting - again sure fire things to help my motivation spring back.
7) Saying these things!
It’s scary, when you are an educator that is supposed to set an example, to say these very things! Part of me hopes nobody reads, but part of me knows, its useful to know these things. We all go through these things, the imposter syndrome, being tired and being unmotivated. I want you to know if you are reading this, it happens to all of us and its temporary. Seasons like this are exactly that, they are seasons. They pass. They are scary and a struggle, but they pass. You think Beyonce never sat there and thought Lemonade might not sell? Of course she did, because she’s human. We all think these things, so thinking them doesn’t make us any less of a makeup artist, a person or an educator. It makes us human.